Unsaid

I’m a 15 years old with a dream but unsure

Unsure if my path is the right path, if I can ever get close to what I want and what would it cost.

I go to check my grades and there I see a grade lower than I expected, tears fill my eyes with the thoughts of how much I worked for that assignment. When I remember the nights I stayed up for and that and the result in front of me says it all. My heart drops with the number and my dreams run away a few more steps away.

“I shouldn’t have taken this class.” 

“Why would I take an AP in something I don’t even like?”

“I didn’t even know anything about this class”

“This is just your freshmen year”

These all seem like excuses to myself now because of how much I told them to myself but these are true and the world keeps on going. I tried my best. My blood pressure flies up to the skies when I think I can’t be the one I expected myself to be but, I’ll still believe in myself with the sentence “I’ll make it up…”